i knew a girl who 
beautiful and so bright
she fell like drops of pure light
on our quiet eyes
but she felt blacker and uglier
than the deepest most forced pit
raped into the earth
her hands bloodied by constant digging
deeper into her pit of ugly
the two faces of eve

in eden she saw her stomach soft and pillowed
hollow and a little round and she thought
how gross
her breasts deep and full for living
she felt and thought to herself
how gross
i hate this body

and with those sober and bloody hands
she carved herself up
until her brightness was lost
under another name
woman
you cannot play me like this
i'm in love with you

you cannot put in my eyes
the falsity of your own shattered vision
woman
where have you been
do you see me
are you listening?

you cannot play me like this 
you cannot
those hands should not destroy 
they're made for creating
for holding for touching for dancing for moving
for loving for kissing
not for this death
of you of me of she